manadreal and I made some of our own Twilight valentines from pictures I found online and a whole lot of glitter glue. Pictures under the cut!

( Jake needs to lay off Bella's lip gloss... )

So, I'm in the middle of my first day of college. It's...interesting. I have a lecture in about 20 minutes on the development of cyborg culture and societal dependence on technology.

<3

There's but ONE Starbucks on campus by my classes, but it's a constant rush. Attempting to order seems fairly pointless, but if I'm going to take an android lecture seriously, I need a latte stat. lol

The only sad thing is that, while Michelle and I are both on campus right now and we'll both be on campus tomorrow, I'm probably not going to see her until Wednesday. Wtf is with your schedule, dear? I miss you~! D:

Who was it that posted a blog (like, forever ago) about the Batman episode where Joker nabs a TV spot in which he says, "So, if you want to avoid any unhappy landings, send $40,000,000 to me, The Joker. That's FORTY MILLION DOLLARS! Operators are standing by! And remember, don't send it by air mail!" *evil laughter here*

Seriously, who was it?

I want to squee over it with you.

As for everyone else, let's all take a moment to marvel at the irony of me not liking Batman until after Dalton and I broke up, after he spent five years trying to get me hooked on it. And also, that the Joker is both his and my favorite character? And all he wanted to do while we were dating was share in his fanboy love? LOLOLOLOLOL

This is yet another reason why I'm sure our love was never meant to be. Too bad he's still hopelessly in love with me. Why is it that whenever it seems I've FINALLY gotten my ducks in a row my life turns into a fucking soap opera?! It's the kind of situation where you HAVE to find it funny, or you'll just go crazy. Kinda like choir was this last year...*tries to repress memories*

So in my Japanese class the upper classmen are doing a karaoke project and two of my friends are doing the dance from Hare Hare Yukai. They have recruited me to dance with them. It's fantastic. Below you may view the dance of which I speak (I'm supposed to be the girl with the short purple/greyish hair).



And then there's this other dance that I think Mishi, Cat and I (and other people too huh?) should learn because it's totally awesome (no but really, we should cosplay this at kumoricon '08 because I can actually look like some of these girls no problem)!

Yeah, you should watch it because it is the coolest/cutest/funniest/most crack-tastic thing Japan has ever put out. It's less than two minutes and it is so worth your time. Oh my God.



In other news, my good friend arroweh brough me the Legend of Zelda Ocarina of Time manga straight from Japan! I love it more than I love chocolate cake. Seriously. Manga!Link is so cute!! Even though he's, you know, a manga character...whatever. Nintendo better come out with a Twilight Princess manga! *swoons over Link*

well, i'm still posting from my phone since i've only been home 15 minutes in the last 24 hours. right now i'm at the hospital.

I am so overwhelmed by the support everyone is giving me. I love you all so much. thanks for your help and understanding.

-darla (a.k.a. speechie)

Hokay, first things first. I stole this from artemischan.

Ask me and I shall tell you which one of your icons I think represents you the most. Then, post this in your journal so I can find out which of my icons you associate with me!

In other news, I am very sick. I don't say that because I'm confined to bed and eating nothing but soup. No, in fact I'm up and about and eating KFC/A&W (omg so goooood oishii!!). I say that because I have two sicknesses and am still getting over a third. :( Long story short I'm on a weird diet where I can't have sugar, caffiene or large amounts of sodium. Needless to say I've been eating a lot of buttered toast. What really sucks? Some of my buddies are having a combined birthday party this weekend at which there will be much pizza and cake and soda...none of which I can eat on my diet. LAME! Why do my illnesses always happen at the most inconvinient times? It's kind of like how every single choral concert happens while I'm on my period. DOUBLE LAME!

I am posting this from my phone

sorry there is no punctuation

dalton says hi and he keeps looking at me like he wants to eat me alive or something

he says I am warm and soft

he is cute

also mishi and will have to come camping with us over spring break

wow this was pointless

Okay, first things first, this is for the benefit of manadreal and Cat...whatever her username is. I forget. ( my classes for term one! )

And now on to the next part *deep breath* I always knew that eventually I'd have to survive on my own with just my peers to help me through, but I never expected it to happen so soon. Ever since I can remember I've had a small group of people a year older than me to guide me and help me through all my other years of school ever since grade 1. Now they're gone and I am lacking any source of worldly advice. I know that using resources like MySpace and the like I can talk to them any time I want or need to, but I still feel alone. Not only that, but my friends tend to look to me as the leader and the person to lean on when times get rough. As much as I enjoy being looked to for that leadership role, I really need an assistant leader. Like a VP or a second in command. I don't know...I guess that for all my talk of being independent when it really comes down to it I'm scared of standing on my own.

I can foresee that at the end of this year I will be a substantially stronger person than I am now. The journey, I suspect, will be long and hard.

Mishi will you be my VP?

Just a note to manadreal:

This is how Will's hair should be cut...

So...my room is coming along nicely...yeah, I have nothing to say. Half Life 2 is pretty cool. I played a level and a half yesterday with my ex's new girlfriend. She's pretty chill. Here's a quiz I took:

What Be Your Nerd Type? Your Result: Social Nerd   You're interested in things such as politics, psychology, child care, and peace. I wouldn't go so far as to call you a hippie, but some of you may be tree-huggers. You're the type of people who are interested in bettering the world. You're possible the least nerdy of them all; unless you participate in other activies that paled your nerdiness compared to your involvement in social activities. Whatever the case, we could still use more of you around. ^_^
Literature Nerd
Drama Nerd
Gamer/Computer Nerd
Musician
Artistic Nerd
Anime Nerd
Science/Math Nerd
What Be Your Nerd Type? Quizzes for MySpace

So it turns out I'm not the only one who's been having totally freaky, Stephen King themed dreams. That probablly means that my life is going to turn into a horror movie shortly before I post this so if I suddenly dissapear somewhere down the line and just stop updating it means I've been eaten by Pennywise. In case of such a tragedy I hearby give manadreal permission to get on my home PC and get all my G/S fan fic off the CPU. She can then post said fan fic in the RvB_slash comm so that my death doesn't have to mean the death of Grif and Simmons' marriage...cuz you know that's exactly what Pennywise wants.

Oh, and also, if I am forced to run away because of being persued by said clown (or perhaps a derranged chainsaw killer) I will most certianly NOT be driving down to Austin, Texas so I can live with Liz and eat her delicious crepes.

Okay, I now have a sad icon. Tex made it for me. It makes sense because I'm Simmons. Now I can be properly emo with no hesitation.

I just found out one of my online friends was diagnosed with cancer as well. We don't know if it's malignant or not yet. Why is all this happening at once?

I just did my nails. Now I have to go shave and practice my speech for my tournament tomorrow. If I'm lucky Tink will be there along with the twins. That'll make me feel better. Maybe I'll go beat the shit out of Ganondorf some more. That always cheers me up. I'm going to try and drop A.P. Biology since I failed the final (despite the fact I did much studying for it). I figure that with a 90 minute study hall as well as a period of being my speech coach's assistant (during which I can also do homework) I may just fulfil her wish of getting a 4.0 GPA. Hopefully as we get into next week I'll perk up.

My conversation with Arty and Michy last night was fun -> +1 thanks you two.

Those of you that read my fan fic: since I'll be gone all weekend don't expect Bunker Chronicles to get updated on time. Sorry.

Thanks for all the hugs you guys. It's nice to know I have so much support. Isn't the internet great? I'm sorry all that was a tad disjointed...

I just want to say thanks to all the people who helped me out while I’ve been sick. More specifically...

Dalton for bringing over Viva Piñata and giving me love and affection despite the fact I’m highly contagious

Alex for letting me borrow his jacket

Tink for telling me the competition results so I didn’t have to wait until Tuesday to hear them (and for letting me wear his jacket even if it wasn’t because I was sick...I’d also like to apologize in advance for probably getting you sick. I promise I’ll bring you soup or candy something)

Patrick, Juan and Antonio for supporting me and helping me get through the end of the day

RT for putting out a new episode which cheered me up and freaked out my mom with excessive use of the “F word”

Freelancer_Tex for sending me the link to that video (the whipped cream and the pillow fight were the best part)

My coach who let me leave yesterday’s tournament right after finals

www.dogpile.com on which I’ve been wasting all day downloading Japanese pop music (Hamasaki Ayumi blows my mind!)

Oh, and everybody else who wished me to get better

No thanks will be awarded to Albertsons because they don’t sell sushi. Nor will they be given to Tyler who I’m pretty sure got me sick. Of course it could also have been Michelle, or Whitney, or Scott...but I’m going to blame Tyler because he’s convenient. You suck Ty. I hate you.

I'm home sick today (BUT NOT OF MY OWN FREE WILL) so I e-mailed all my teachers to get my homework and apparently this huge assignment for my advanced history course is due Wednesday but I can't open the attachment my teacher sent to me that explains it. Perhaps this is God's way of telling me I should get my ass off the computer and into bed? I'd go watch TV but 9/11 traumatized me enough that I don't feel like re-living the experience...

Anyways, I'm hoping somebody will bring me minestrone soup out of pity for my illness, but I doubt any of my idiot friends would be nice enough to do that...fuckers. Thanks for trying to bring me soup Mishi! I'm sorry I didn't answer the door! I must have been sleeping...^^;

Frank: I don't care if you sit next to me in choir, just please try not to throw off my rhythm and then insult my singing abilities the next time you do it. Also, I understand that you want to watch The Steelers v The Dolphins tomorrow night, but if our director wants us to meet in the commons to eat cake and learn how to polka, you're just going to have to suck it up and program your VCR to record the "big game". Oh, and one more thing, I agree that we should move to Vancouver BC (that place has got it right!)

Mishi (aka shrimp chips): I ♥ you

My new advanced biology ultra advanced bio+++ teacher: Try to remember that teachers other than yourself will be giving out homework every night. I get that I might spend 2 or 3 hours working on homework for your class alone, but 4 to 5 hours just seems excessive. If I'm at school for 6 hours, I don't think I should spend 8 doing homework. When am I supposed to eat, sleep or shower? Please meet with my other teachers to discuss this.

My new Japanese teacher: The fact that you pronounce my name "Day-la" instead of "Darla" makes me smile. I like being Day-la better and even though you now know Darla is the correct way to say it, I don't want you to call me that. Day-la is so much cooler. She sounds like the kind of gal who has a life and I'd very much enjoy having one of those.

Chris: When you say you're gonna call me back later, don't forget to do it. Especially when you called me 20 minutes earlier to demand I entertain you despite the fact I was doing my ultra advanced bio+++ homework.

Me: If you think changing your motto from that cool Church quote about how, "That's the way things fuckin' are" and how you should "Quit yer bitchin' Nancy", to a more personal quote like, "Do it all your Junior year...and also quit yer bitchin'!" that's fine.

All my readers: Don't expect to see me around anytime soon. If you have any complaints about my lack of time on the internet, feel free to send any complaint(s) to my biology teacher.

My parents hired my ex-boyfriend Ben to do yard work and I have to say it was really nice to see him. I sat outside and talked to him (and got MORE sun burnt) while he bundled branches. I reflected a lot on my time with him and the time after we broke up. I've realized something important. As I head into my junior year of advanced schooling I have a FULL schedule and no free time. I'll be so busy with AP and film classes that I'll either be at school learning or at home doing homework which means no time for a boyfriend. As much as I love Chris, I can't be with him not only because of distance but because I need to concentrate on my studies. That's a hard realization to come by, especially when you're a creature such as myself that needs constant love, support, and affection. I've decided to rely on my friends for these things.

Chris said he'd humor my neediness. To me that means hand-holding, arm-putting-around, and other types of holding in general with a possible side of face sucking are implied. To him it probably means we'll sit close together in a dark theater with my head resting on his shoulder. Oh well, expect nothing and you will not be disappointed.

In other news, while Ben was over today we played Oblivion and I closed yet another gate. Nobody seems to have realized it was opened so I guess I won't get any recognition from the townsfolk, but while I was in Oblivion I sat my character down on a dadric worship bench in front of the blood fountain (which gives you health when you drink from it) and we thought it was funny enough for me to draw it so if I get it done and on my CPU maybe I'll post it so you can see some of my kick-ass art! Also, we discovered I should become an auto-mechanic when I referred to one of the towers on the plane of Oblivion as being "...the right one; it's definitely glowing like some thing's wrong with it..."

So as you probably know this week totally blew. I felt so alone and scared the whole time I was so worried. Today, obviously, was Sunday which for me means church. As I said, I've felt really alone and frightened lately and I didn't want to go to church. I really just wanted to sit at home and veg unhappily. But, I decided it would be best to go to church and I'm happy I did.

Our church's band, Scarlet Chord, played and it was so awesome. The words were about feeling alone but knowing that God is always with us and turning to him for strength when you feel week. Then there was another song about giving up control and letting God guide you.

I felt like that really applied to me tonight and I'm so glad that I went because my spirits (as well as my heart) feel lifted greatly.

In other news, there was a lightening storm tonight. I love lightening.

In OTHER news, Chris told me we should hang out sometime, but not alone. I've been flirting shamelessly with him (because whether it's a good idea or not I want to be with him) and he thinks that if we're alone he, "won't be able to say no and do something to lead u on". I replied by saying that he led me on even when he rejected me, and that I'd never stop fighting for him. I then finished by telling him that being with him and his friends would make me uncomfortable. He conceded that we could hang alone then. Here's the question o' the day: did he mean we could hang alone because now he knows he won't lead me on, because he knows I'll make something happen no matter what, or because he doesn't want me to be uncomfortable?

GHAA! That boy flabbergasts me to no end! How can he make me feel simultaneously ecstatic and sad at the same time?

I'm still binge eating. Today I've had a bowel coco-pebbles, two chocolate fudge brownies, some cookies, caramel macaroons in white chocolate, chicago pie from papa murphey's, yet more ice cream, cheesy bread, ham steaks, and some tomatoes. On top of that my insomnia's kicking in again in full force. I didn't go to bed until a little after 7:00am this morning (i stayed awake ALL NIGHT last night reading rvb slash) and slept until about 4:15 in the afternoon. I know that unhappiness can effect your schedule and habits but is it time to worry yet? Probably not, it hasn't even been a week...yet.